With the stones they put in her way...

People might or might not know this gal too well unless you have heard of her story about the last 22 years. She was born on July 4th, 1984; this date stops her from celebrating her birthday as the whole America always takes over this job on behalf of her. Instead, she often chooses a very special way to interpret this time by wandering off around the neighbouring cities, reading a good book, watching a fabulous film or simply spending a bit time with her family. After all, like what she always says, this date is more meaningful to her mum, who gave her birth and raised her up for nothing... A mother shoulders so much responsibility, as well as throngs of obligations to the newborn's future. She feels very grateful whenever her birthday comes.

This gal was very sick when she was three years old, asthma ruined her whole childhood, such a vibrant and versatile girl at that time had to give up her ballet dance learning, sports, and all her hobbies, and spend her whole spare time on endless medication. In other people's eyes, she's thin, fragile, quiet, and sensitive, who seldom dared to speak in front of the crowds. Pitiful life worn her down, tears was often streaming down to her chins. Though she went through so many medications, none of the remedy could ever cure her root disease, she was struggling to hell with her energy being drained bit by bit, so were her beloved parents. She still could recall the moment when she was hugging with her mum in tears and questioning how long she would live on the earth...

Asthma is a type of chronic disease, which however is not vital, but kills you by wearing you down day by day if you don't have proper medication to control it. When it plays, you will feel like somebody is trying to suffocate you, this poor little gal had to bear this continuous torture brought by the hopeless ailment. Through this twists and turns, her strong determination however held her up... not only this disease didn't weaken her health condition, but strengthened her commitment of being alive for her parents, as well as herself. In order to improve her immune system, she didn't allow herself to live with privileges; she believed she could do anything other peers could... Life was severely tough on her, however never slowed down her pace, nor given herself up half a way.
God bless whoever blesses themselves. She made it!! Her notorious asthma has eventually abandoned her, and left a healthy condition, as well as a determined heart, at that time, she was 16 years old. However, fortune didn't last that long. Few weeks before her middle school graduation exam, her mother was hospitalised for three tumors in the diaphragm, badly pressed the artery which resulted a symptom of high blood pressure. So as to remove those tumors, a big and risky operation was unavoidable. For the sake of this rare case, the director in Urological Department couldn't 100% commit if the operation will be successful. Blended with so much uncertainty, confusion and depression, she hardly focused herself on the exam preparation, accompanying her mum might be the only method to smooth her pain, and she continued doing that for the whole summer vacation until her mum fully recovered from the operation. it looked like a happy ending, unluckily, things are never too easy for her to be predicted. She hasn't been accepted by the high school she desperately wanted to go... only short of 5 scores, she's been screened down to a polytechnic school. She's paralysed thoroughly, even too exhausted to cry out for this unfairness... At this time, God didn't desert her; a so called good start might not lead you to a fabulous ending and vice versa. This admission has unexpectedly ended up being her turning point. Equipped with her persistence, diligence, passion, as well as a determined heart, she created so many breakthroughs during 4 academic years, along with constant achievements and millions of applauses from her teachers & schoolmates, she clearly knew that she could live up everyone's expectation but not her poor family, who needs her to be good, strong and successful. The beautiful smile worn on her parent's faces every time she handed them her certificates of merit or any awards was the best compliment against her effort.

During the 4 schooling years, she never stopped her passion in English, she profusely admitted that she wasn't a really bright girl as other creams of the crops in her class, the only way to surpass the top was through diligent study, she managed to squeeze at least 6 hours a day in her study. With this workload doubled than any other's, she, as well as her teachers, witnessed her dramatic progress. She also actively involved in many social activities by organising English corner, sports day, Christmas party etc, which allowed her to be surrounded by an exciting, warm, and admirable circumstance. To be a versatile student was always her target which she made all out effort to march forward to. Her endeavour has been surprisingly rewarded by this Australian college as the first Chinese who ever be granted a title “International student achievement award" and invited to Sydney for the award ceremony. She almost jumped up to her feet once she heard this news from her principal. It's been a while that she hasn't worn any smile till that day. Recalling few weeks ago, she still felt very depressed as she couldn't go to Australia for a two-week summer camp organized by her school simply because of financial shortage in her family, now she could fly over there for free, she dearly did her proud, but still remained a humble heart for she knew this trip would be her great opportunity to open up horizon, as well as polish herself better. At the same time, she urged to share her happy tears with her parents because she has proved never to let them down... She was 18 years old by that time, and was the first time she ever took the plane alone to a western country...

She's a lucky dog in the end, at least nothing has seriously stop her progressing, as well as seeking her out in the real society after her graduation (2003), she hopped several jobs, but never slowed down her pace of finding a proper environment to grow. She kept opening her heart to more and more people, most of who have been moved with her sincerity and became her friends. Smile seems to be her symbol, which wears on her face 24 hours as if she wants to make use of her big smile to make up her poignant past. Till one day, she met up with one person who has entirely dominated her simple life. She's dearly besotted with him, so was he... since then, she has never been alone, who finally found a person to share nothing but entire life. He was not perfect, yes, but no one is perfect in the world, isn't it? but his kind-heart, charming voice, tender gaze, knowledgeable mind have impressed her deeply, which excruciatingly puzzled her so much, she couldn't find a reason saying no to his all requests. Even though there were so many differences between this young couple, they each were trying to learn how to get over with all the barriers in their life.

Time flew like an arrow, she couldn't believe this young man who has been with her for nearly two years, going through all the twists and turns, has suddenly "left" her without even saying goodbye, she's desperately burst into tears beside his cold body as though the whole world has crashed of his decease. All the dreams with him, knitted by this young girl have all bubbled. She couldn't bear why God has been so unfair to her every time, why should she stand those shits in her life at her young age! Many times she has been awake sobbing, nothing could stop her from thinking about him, his eyes, his lips, his warm hug... But she was not allowed to bury herself in tears and sorrow, so many things needed to be coped by her, packing up his belongings, cleaning up his apartment and returned the lease, body transport... her parents could help her nothing due to the language barrier, as this boy originated from Cambridge, Britain, who has all his legal documents in English. She had to keep banging her mind and reiterating, "Be rational and strong, gal, you have to go through this, albeit the toughest, darkest, most tragic drama in your life time, you have to get up your feet and prioritize the issues." Concerning to this, she had no choice...

Months after, her physical sorrow has faded away but emotional trauma, she could never be as happy as before unless she could seek out another Mr. Right who can dry her tears and cure her pain, but it appears to be an unsolvable difficulty, not because she can't, but she never intend to...

She is managing to make all her life simple and happy, but seemingly fate always makes fun of her. Nevertheless, her faith has never been distorted or given up over the last few years, namely, being an optimist, she firmly believes 'with the stones they put in her way, may she build a solid road to travel.' That's the maxim her boy left to her, and that's why she promises herself to live for joy just like her name for now and forever.